I love you

As I put LM down tonight as I do every night we say prayers, with Mommy and our Daddy frame that talks. And we hug and kiss night night. I say sleep tight, sweet dreams, I love you , etc. I must say at least those three things or he won't let me leave the room. He used to say I love you back. This is what tonight sounded like:
M: Night night, sweet dreams, sleep tight, love you LM
LM: sweet dreams, sleept tight
M: love you LM
LM: sweet dreams
M: ( a little more emphatically) LOVE YOU LM
LM: I heared you mommy ( and yes I did say heared b/c that is how he says it)
My day has passed....already?? Really? I thought it wouldn't be until he was at least 18--that's okay I am going to make a momma's boy out of this one yet ;) But really it's sad that he doesn't even say it anymore. It's forced now --how do boy sknow this stuff already?? I bet Miss G will start saying it and never stop. Boys just know they aren't supposed to be too mushy.

I am outing myself again....

I figured while I was on a roll I may as well out myself on this topic too. I am growing fond of WA.....okay my Spain friends I know you can't possibly understand. I have finally come to terms with this place and we have an understanding. That first year really was the worst I have seen and the last few years haven't been nearly as bad. I didn't believe the locals when they said it was the worst they had seen in years. Now I do believe them. God and my husband I am sure were sick of me complaining. God has put me in a place where I can finally accept and appreciate my surroundings. I am not sure if that is it or it was so bad my standard of good has lowered ;) I used to think our sister squadron members were crazy when they didn't want to leave here and now I get that you have to stay longer than 2 years to get it. Am I dying to come back here? Not a chance, but I have learned to make the best of it and learned a lot about myself in the process. It certainly helps that we have had massive amounts of sunshine for this late in the year too. And I also think this place is very endearing to me b/c my beautiful babies were born here so it will always hold a special place in my heart. Am I ready for a change? As Sarah would say "you betcha".

I finally have to admit it.....

What I am about to say may cost me my marriage, it is the travesty of all travesties, the most unthinkable of unthinkables, and in my family I may as well just go ahead and write myself off.
I'll start with dear AU friends please know that I love the loveliest village on the plains. It's the most beautiful place I have seen on a fall day with that orange and blue sky. I am an Auburn fan and I love the school. I love the football even when they aren't doing well. I stand behind my team even when times are tough and am proud to support them......but what you may not know about me is ..................I love Alabama football too. Okay, for those of you who are still reading this and haven't fainted or decided to write me off (including my husband) I have always loved AL football. As a little girl I grew up rooting for the Tide. I have fond memories of sitting in my paw paw's living room decked out in AL stuff from wall to wall and watching the game on Saturdays or watching with my Dad and I never remember my family saying bad things about Auburn. We just weren't that family that was always dogging the other team...don't get me wrong there is and always will be arivalry but it wasn't that deep down disdain. Now, for those of you dear AU fans and friends I know it's killing you as you shake your head and say how is this possible? You JUST CAN'T like both --you can't LOVE both. Well, you can and I do.......when they play each other what do I do? I cheer them both on and hope they both have a great game with no injuries. As an AU student I loved seeing them win and Toomer's being littered with tp all over.
I have been stifling my true passion for AL football all these years to keep the peace in my house. ANd one thing you may not know about my dear die hard husband is he too was once an AL fan ( when he was young and silly according to him) Either way I will wear my Auburn shirts proudly as an alumni. I will share with my son the passion for both , after all they are both from the state of AL and at this point we are rooting for anyone from the state we have been gone so long. When you are all the way up in WA you start to root for any team from AL!!! I want him to decide on his own who he likes without bad mouthing the other team....but today we were AL fans rooting for a win over LSU. With our red and white shakers we sat and watched and waited and cheered. And there it was......the arms raised for a TD.....everyone went wild and I was so glad to see Saban beat Les Myles. And my little man said......"yeah, Roll Tide mommy.....Auburn won" Dear boy--so sweet :) Yes, they did win today too :)
All of this said at the risk of losing dear friends and possibly my husband.....but I knew today that deep down I still have that love for AL too because of how I felt when they won. I was so excited I couldn't breathe, I jumped up and down and twirled my boy around and nearly came to tears. They may lose next week to FL but I will still be rooting them on just like I do Auburn too each week. Now that I have outed myself I hope some of you still talk to me.

At the request....

of my dear husband I will stop talking politics and "start posting more pictures of the kids" :)
Here are the latest of our little bubbies.

I am over it....

.....maybe. Still quite disappointed but I am definitely hopeful that through prayer and unity we as Americans can make a difference and shout out to what we think is wrong. And hopefully our president -elect will hear us. I still and will continue to pray for him and our leaders as they make decisions that affect us. I do now realize that no matter who the dem candidate was they would have won. People were ready for a change and I understand that , much in the way people were ready for a change when Clinton left the oval office. After 8 years of questionable moral character people were ready for a change. Do I still believe in Bush and all he has done....mostly yes. I am still a firm believer in the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan and taking it to them there rather than waiting on it to come here. I think we should see it through and if we don't we will have to deal with those consequences. I think history will tell what Bush set in motion and the things he did do that were positive. But for now we all wait to see what the next move will be...the ball is in his court. As for the media and its liberal bias I don't want to hear one word of negativity about Barack --he was your golden boy and no matter what he does they better stand behind him b/c the first negative thing I hear I may kick my tv in. ;)

waiting.....

I have been waiting for this to all be over before I blogged about it. I don't know where to begin. What a tenacious man John McCain is and I don't care what people think I love Sarah Palin. Thrust into the spotlight she never strayed from her conservative views, many of the same views I share no matter how un PC it was.
I can remember when Clinton was elected...I remember the fear of the unknown and in comparison I think his years will look like glory days compared to what we will experience soon. As a parent I share that same fear. My morals and the morals this country was founded on are now in jeopardy. The next four years will take the next twenty to fix. I would like to say I have faith in the people of this country but most of that has been shattered today. Where did people not see that a man who has the same associations as our president elect couldn't even qualify to be an FBI agent but is capable to run this country. So now , I pray---for our country , for our safety, for our morals and values not to decline even further. Maybe it's because I am a military wife and as much as I hate it the fight has to be fought away from our home. I fear for my children, for my husband. It won't be long until we are facing another 9/11 type situation at home and what will this man do......let's hope he will stand and fight for this country that he so adamantly says he loves. Radicals, terrorists , and our enemies around the world are rejoicing because they know where this guy stands....mark my words the fear will be back just like we felt on 9/11 and then the same people will want a president who will take a stand. I only pray that he will--I pray for wisdom and guidance for our country and its leaders. Many may be offended by what I put on here today and in all honesty I don't care. I have held my own tongue far too long so as not to be offensive in this liberal state I live in....no longer. I see a hard road ahead for my children as they go to school and are told they can't talk about their faith or their beliefs but any other person with any other religion is granted special privileges so as not to offend them. All of this said, I may have lost a lot of faith in the American people tonight but I still have my faith in God. He has put all of this in motion for a reason....He is the provider and He will give us strength and guidance. I just pray for our military men and women out there because an even bigger target was just put on them to be the test...I pray for their families as well. I may just be a housewife but I will fight for what is right and what I believe in and to be able to express that. So today I put my faith in our creator that He has a plan for all of this and I seek peace in that.

Pupcakes

LM and I made some "pupcakes" with green frosting this weekend. I thought it was adorable that he kept calling them pupcakes....and for lunch we made "piece of dillas" or quesadillas. He has been so hilarious lately. He just lights up my day with that smile. And Miss G too! She is so precious, such a happy girl...except when she is hungry. Watch out when she wants food.
I have been thinking a lot lately on this first week of November. Can you believe that it's Nov. already? This time last year I was battling morning sickness and chasing LM around and just returning from a trip to AL. I can't believe it's also been six months since daddy left. I can remember when we first got the news that we were going to have to deal with this IA. It was so devastating to get that news that he would be gone for a year. It didn't help that I was hormonal and pregnant. I just remember the anger and disbelief of it all. I look back now and realize it's just a range of emotions I had to go through and realize it's pretty normal looking at other IA wives. I went through the sadness and loneliness ( and still there ) and now am in survival mode. This experience was/is such a learning experience. I am learning so much about myself. There are days when I want to curl up in a ball and cry b/c I would love some help and I feel so lonely even though I am surrounded by great friends. But there are many more days where I feel like I am thriving, learning and surviving. It's small potatoes compared to what some people go through but at the time I thought how will I do this. The family rallied around and helped when Miss G came and that was such a blessing and I don't think I could have made it through those first few months without all the help. It's been so great to learn just how tough I am, how much I can do that I never thought I could. I really did think I was going to run for the hills or at least AL screaming. And here I am halfway through this year and still in one piece, looking back and thinking it hasn't been as hard as I thought......do I ever want to do it again? NO, not on your life but as a military wife you can bet your bottom I will have to do it at least several more times. But now I know I can and it's not so overwhelming...well, maybe it is but I have learned that I am tougher than I thought, coffee is Great except when you try to get off of it, sleep isn't necessary to function (to function rationally maybe)..... I'm pretty sure all the praying has helped too :)